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(sigh) I've been working nonstop 6 day weeks at my job, which means I barely have time to do anything at all. The last weekday I had off was over a month ago. It's all due to people being in school, people moving on finding better jobs and the inability of my management team to find anyone to work here. And like I said, it's having a serious effect on my whole life. The only positive thing is that I obviously have more money than I ever had before and that's because my checks every other week have my regular 80 hours and then anywhere from 10-16 hours of overtime. Yeah, it's crazy. And I'm not really trying to complain because I just got a Xbox One and I really need to finance it with Lords of the Fallen, Sunset Overdrive, WWE2K15 and Far Cry 4 ALL coming out within the next couple of weeks, not to mention I want to buy Shadow of Mordor used as well. That's about $300 right there, and I didn't even include other games like Persona Q and Tales of Hearts R. I'll be buying games every Tuesday except Nov 4th. So Far Cry 4 and WWE come out on Nov 18th, Smash Bros on the 21st and Persona Q on the 25. So, the overtime is coming in handy. That's what's paying for those games. That's the only good thing coming from it. Everything else though, is a mess.

The only day I get off is Sunday and that's only because I'm busy with church. Lord knows if that wasn't in place if I would even get a day off. It's infuriating because I have no time for my personal life. I don't have time to spend with my wife as she works two jobs and obviously our schedules don't always match up to see each other. Fridays are the best example of this. She works in the morning while I work at night and then when I'm getting off, she's right back out to work again so I don't end up seeing her until Saturday morning and that's only for a short while because I'm back getting ready for work. It's a hassle. I don't have time to effectively ready a bible study lesson. I teach certain bible studies on Tuesdays at 6 and working 6 days takes away from that. I would usually use a day off to dedicate to the lesson but now, I have to do it in spurts or just wing it. I don't like that I'm giving God part time work but I'm giving my earthly job overtime. It doesn't feel right to me. Even with all those games coming out, the only games I can really give time to are the portable ones as I play them coming and leaving work. I've played more Smash Bros than anything else right now and like I said, I just got a Xbox One and The Evil Within, which I've only put in 4 hours in so far. It came out about a week ago!



Sorry, ANYWAY, my management team can see the toll this is taking on me. I guess I show it in my face, actions or speech. I don't mean to, I'm just burnt out. Looking at my past timesheets, I've worked 50+ hours for 3 weeks straight. This will be week #4. I don't care if I have to work 50+ hours but I need another day of that isn't Sunday. It's take a heavy toll on not only my body but my relationships and time spent with games, wrestling and even my blog. While the latter isn't as important as my relationship with God, my wife and my family, I'd still like to have time to do those things. I guess this is how CM Punk felt once he got his big break. Punk went from mid card guy to super stardom and was making appearances everywhere, starting wrestling more and more and got less and less interested in the thing he loved. That's sad. I've always wanted to make more money but not like this. Not if I have to kill myself to get it. For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world, and forfeit his soul? Mark 8:36 says this.

I'm exhausted. I'm frustrated. I have no relief from anyone. It's hard being the Hyatt Place John Cena. I respect people who can put their whole team on their back and not have any worries but right now, at this current point, I don't like doing it. Maybe it will grow on me but not having time for God, my wife and my interests is not something I generally like. If there is some kind of common ground, I'm all for it but my work life is like a typical John Cena match right, one dominating the other. Lesnar/Cena from SummerSlam represents my work life in a nutshell. Work representing Lesnar and me and my personal life Cena, being thrown around dozens of time without much resistance from me. Is it my fault that this has happened? Is it my fault that I'm just a good worker who's being used too much? Maybe I should speak up but it's unfair of me to think I'm the only one struggling right now. My AGM is forced to work audit now every night because the auditor we had quit. And he doesn't get a day off. Isn't he going through the same pain I am? It's even worse for him because he's salary, so anything past 40 doesn't mean crap. What right do I have to complain when I don't have it as bad?

I'll survive. There are worse things to suffer from in life. Ebola, poverty, an STD, etc. My major complaint in life is that I'm working too much and in turn, making a pretty penny. I'm sure someone somewhere is telling me to shut the (blank) up but hey, I just felt like ranting a bit.

You know my favorite part about all of this? Is when I work Monday night and then Tuesday morning. The reactions from the guests are classic. Did you go home? Do you have a cot here? You're always here aren't you? They don't let you leave huh? Haha, little do they know....

Gaming and wrestling posts will resume shortly, just let me get situated with all this. Rollings/Ambrose Hell in a Cell on Sunday! The rest of the PPV is severely lacking. Two rematches from past PPVs, along with another match to make Rusev look good and a pointless Bella match make for a disappointing PPV on paper. Also, we get Orton/Cena XXVII so that's awesome. And it will probably be the main event! SUPER. At least Orton is going to be turning face soon. Really looking forward to the Orton/Rollings feud to come. I think that could be something special. A feud that will ignite the Viper again. WWE has become SO boring without their two future stars Roman Reigns and Bray Wyatt but I give props to Rollings and Ambrose for keeping it interesting. Survivor Series is next month, hopefully we get a respectable Classic SS match at the main event. It only makes sense if the champion can't compete. More on my thoughts on that to come in another post...