So, my co-worker was working on an assignment that she needed to do for school and she was looking up questions and asking me for my opinions on appropriate ones to ask mental health patients. While doing that, I got this idea for the post. When I was doing all does interview posts, I had always planned on doing one of myself but since I own and run the blog, I'm sure many people know what I'm about already so I never went and did it. Now, some month later. I think it's now a good time to question myself but in a self reflecting manner. This should be good. Thanks to Jas for providing me with another topic to discuss on this blog.
So, I just went to Google and typed self reflection questions. This post, as my other posts, doesn't have a limit at all. I'll keep answering questions until I get bored with this and move on. So, for the first time ever done on this blog, I will meditate and reflect on my life as a whole.
1. What are you passionate about?
God, my wife, and my interests. My zeal for God isn't always clear because I don't believe forcing my beliefs onto someone. If someone wants an encouraging word, i'm not a person to just up right and say it because I don't want to offend anyone. Is that a bad thing? When the Bible says that we should be fishers of men, yes it is. I should be putting on those seeds of encouragement here and there but I don't. My wife obviously because I married her. I want to do right by her and for her, no matter what. My interests is obvious as well. I have a whole blog about it!
2. What are the achievements you are most proud of in life?
Becoming a deacon is pretty high. From a non believer to the head of a deacon board was definitely a 180 that I'm proud about. Getting married on the original date we planned is high as well. I had the displeasure of almost ruining that by not having a job but in the nick of time, I got my job at Hyatt and the rest, as they say, is history. Though it's not important in life, beating Dark Souls 1 and 2, Catherine, Ninja Gaiden on Xbox and all the Organization XIII members on Proud in Kingdom Hearts 2 Final Mix are my top gamer achievements. Like I said, not important but I accomplished them and feel good about it.
3. What are you most grateful for in life?
There really isn't just one thing I can claim I'm most grateful for except the obvious answer, which is life. I'm grateful for my parents for instilling good teaching in me, both worldly and spiritually. I'm grateful for my wife for putting up with me. I'm a lot to handle and I know I put her through some things but she handles me well. Although my job treats me like a slave, I'm grateful for working and providing for my family and myself. I'm grateful for my church and friends. Three friends that I have right now, I've known since 1997. Yes, 1997! 97 was the year Final Fantasy VII came out, Titanic smashed box office records, and when the Montreal Screwjob took place. That's a long time ago people! I'm jut grateful for the life I'm living. Things aren't always smooth like how I want them but I'm getting through life fairly well.
4. How would you describe yourself?
I'm a loner or at least, I have a loner mentality. I don't venture out of my comfort zone. I'm very reserved unless you get me in my element or just force me to talk to you. I don't take a lot of things too seriously. I love technology and seeing how it works, including computers and video games and pretty much anything that has to connect to Wi-Fi. I'm very lazy unless it deals with something I like, for example, let's say I work my usual 3-11 on Monday night. I get home around 12:30, watch Raw, and go to sleep around 3ish. Now, if I want to play the game or go get a game that's being released on that Tuesday, I'll be up early. negating any sleep that my body needs. If I don't have anything to do, I'll just continue to sleep or play around in the bed with my phone or laptop. To sum this all up, I'm a unique individual, one who would rather enjoy a 60 hour video game adventure than a 6 hour social gathering. While I'm not saying I don't enjoy them, I prefer gaming any day of the week.
5. If you had one year left to live, what would you do?
Heh. Deepen my relationship with God first. I would like to get the maximum understanding of the Bible before I leave. Save enough money for my wife so she's not struggling once I'm gone. Attend Wrestlemania somehow, someway. Get A LOT of my chest to a lot of people. The last three months I would just lock myself in a room and play and finish ALL the games that I haven't finished yet. I would aslo try to have a child in that span to continue the Stephens legacy and to have someone around for my parents and wife to remember me by. On the very last day, I would just spend time with my wife. Whatever she wants to do, we do. I don't care how far out my comfort zone I'd have to go, I'd make the sacrifice for her. Other than that, I'm not too sure. 365 days is a lot of time.
6. What advice would you give yourself 3 years ago?
Sweet, time travel! I would tell 2012 Marcus to stay focus on the finish line. In 2012, I was engaged to Robyn, still making 7.95/hr at McDonalds. That ain't no life for a wife to be. I would just tell him, things will definitely get better and that after marriage, hard times will be coming so prepare yourself and save more money. I wouldn't csay anything too drastic as I'm sure that could have a major ripple effect for things to come.
7. What would you do if you cannot fail; if there are no limitations in money, resources, time or networks?
I would do two things. One, which is a dream of mine, become a Youtube gamer person. I don't know what the official title is but I would play games for people to view over the Internet. Second, continue to type my blog and make it bigger than ever before. I want people to give me feedback so I can better it in the future. I would like to do videos with all the other well known gaming channels, like JonTron, Continue, PBG, GameGrumps, etc. My main goal would just be to finish all the games I started and having people laugh with me online about my mistakes and help me and share in something we all know and love.
8. If you were to die tomorrow, what would be your biggest regret?
Not being truthful with the people I come in contact with. There are some things I need to get off my chest to everyone in my life. My wife, parents, friends and my co-workers. If I was to die tomorrow, I wouldn't get that chance to really express how I feel and I don't want people to assume something about me. I want them to know the facts. Like, let's say I didn't like someone. I don't want that person thinking I liked them when I died or vice versa.
9. What do you love about life?
The freedom of choice. Just because I'm a deacon doesn't mean my friends have to be deacons. It's the choices in life that make us all different. I love to think of our lives as one big video game and our ultimate goal is to find ourselves and/or our purpose. Like games, there are different ways to express this idea. Some might take shorter to reach their conclusion while others take awhile to really start up. I'm the latter. We all have plenty of choices to make in our lives and our lives branch with each decision. Should I go to school or stay at my job? Should I be with this person or that person? There are MILLIONS of different options and ways our life can go and it's pretty neat when you really think about it. That's why I compare it to video games or at least games that allow multiple choices, like the Telltale games and such.
I also love being married, playing video games, watching and hating wrestling and typing this blog. All those things get me through this crazy thing called life. They are my releases and I think everyone in life needs a stress reliever or releaser. Otherwise, all that stress will stay bottled up and you could end up exploding for no reason. Getting all my thoughts out on this blog helps me a lot.
10. What’s surprised you the most about your life or life in general?
Life in general, I think what shocks me most is the way people respond to real life situations on social media. For example, the whole situation with Mike Brown. Everybody suddenly became a judge or a civil rights specialist. It seemed like EVERYONE had an opinion about it but me and I was just shocked at how much people argued about a situation they weren't even apart of. While people were all talking about that, I was talking about how Lesnar completely dominated Cena at SummerSlam. Things like that scare me, like are we really focused that much on trivial matters such as that that we can let they affect our daily lives. People had to take time out of their day to post an opinion about that. Time they could have used spending time with their loved ones or with their interests etc. I'm also surprised about how much sex and violence is allowed on television, movies now. Video games always had their violence out there and you had to pay like $50 to even see it so that's not the issue here. Sex seems to be in everything now. Even Nick and Disney have sexual innuendos all throughout their programming. When did that become the norm? Valentine's Day weekend is going to be the release of Fifty Shades of Grey which EVERY woman in the 18-35 age bracket are going to see and then talk all about it over social media. What kind of life is this? Not knocking FSOG but a movie like that wouldn't have existed 20 years ago. Different times, I guess.
What's most surprising to me in my life is everything after high school. I couldn't have ever imagined that the girl I worked with first would be the same one I would marry. My whole story with Robyn is just one that I could have never seen coming. My relationship with God was another thing that I didn't think would happen. I basically didn't believe in anything growing up. My mother and then step father took me to church a couple times but I was never told why we were going or what was the point of going. It was dumb to me and took away time from things I liked doing. Eventually, I got older and it was explained to me properly and I became a deacon of my church. Just another thing that I could not have foretold or saw coming.
Alright, not the longest or most in depth post but something different that my usual gaming and pro wrestling talks!
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